My Own Little Stage

... Good nights are good. (And cryptic Hannah is cryptic!)

Mood vastly improved from last entry... fun times. Yes. :)

Feeling a sliver guilty? But it's okay.

I'm in a rotton, complain-y mood. I have a headache (SHOCKER - I get way too many headaches...) and I've had this one on and off all day. I'm tired and I have to wake up in 6 hours to take Paul to summer school. Paul, who is showing his awful colors in full force, who SCREAMED at my mom so badly tonight when she asked him to come sit at the dinner table (he had snacked so much he wasn't hungry) and he pitched a fit so bad I had to leave the house, literally - I got in the car and went to have coffee with Cliff even though I had said I wasn't going to be able to leave until after dinner, I just left. I couldn't take it. If he's like this all summer, I don't know what I'm going to do. I want to be with both my parents and Paul - but happy Paul not I'M GOING TO SCREAM FOR 30 MINUTES STRAIGHT Paul. I feel disorganized and untransitioned and stuck and unhappy. I miss Michael so, so much. I want to call him or text him or Facebook message him and tell him I miss him, but I feel that's inappropriate; and anyway it might cause him more pain than its worth. Everything makes me think of him and it seems suddenly there are UMichigan tee-shirts, licence plates, and other blue and maize stuff EVERYWHERE.

I want him but I hate distance... I want him here. I ate an entire bag of "Misery Chips" (a Michael-donned-pseudonym because I eat them often when I'm stressed/depressed), aka Tostitos with a Hint of Lime, while watching TV because Paul stressed me out so much. Writing about it reminds me of Michael because he would buy me a bag of the chips whenever I visited (in theory so I could eat them on the plane home 'cause I'd be sad but just the sweetest thing ever... once he even made me a "Welcome Hannah" sign that he hung over my side of the bed). I want sour straws, another thing he introduced me to and when he discovered I loved them so much, bought me an entire box (something he had to ask the guy to go into the back for becasue they're sold individually). I want to watch movies I've only heard of because he likes them or they're on TV while trying to both fit on his far-too-small couch. I want to enjoy his HUGE bed where even though he's over 6' 4" tall, I have more room than I need. I want to cook for him. I want him to cook for me. I want him to show me around Ann Arbor. I want to watch him study while I watch movies on my laptop. I want to talk to him. I want him to kiss me, and have him have to slouch down while I stand on my tiptoes to make it work. I miss him so much.

• 12:51 Billy Mays (the OxyClean guy) died?!?! Stop dying, people! Another matinee today. #
• 22:59 Just joined a twibe. Visit twibes.com/PogueBook?v=0 to join #
• 01:10 Home for a few days. Internet is bad. Might go insane. GRRR. #

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• 12:25 It really bothers me to see Tour Guides giving wrong info. (I'm a guide too - I have to stop myself from interrupting/correcting them.) #
• 14:29 The girls dressing room is stinky :( #

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• 15:55 Harry Potter - the musical! Yes! bit.ly/8sRz6 #
• 19:52 Bored pre-show. Almost sold out, though, exciting! President of Uni coming tonight, yay.Talkback later. I'M SO BORED LET'S GET STARTED!! #
• 03:43 Insomnia before a 2 show day??? FML. #

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• 12:51 Wow I could sleep ALL DAY. #
• 01:09 I feel a little bad complaining on a tragic day like today, but IT IS SO HOT IN THIS ROOM. Also I left my phone at the theater. :( #

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• 11:42 Can't get into room because roommate (with key) won't pick up her phone. Grrrrr! #
• 12:15 I'm gonna be in David @Pogue 's Twitter book!! (More info here: bit.ly/2b8FQ ) #
• 14:02 Nap time after gym. #
• 17:30 Unpleasantly muggy :( #

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• 14:16 I have 0 desire to do anything today. #
• 16:59 Can't decide if I'm bored or tired. #

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• 03:29 I just photoshopped myself a little... deciding if it's encouraging or depressing to see how good I can look when I'm more in shape. #

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Apparently the Fête de la Musique just happened in Paris... I remember that night last year. So much fun; I took some of my favorite France pictures that night (see below). Makes me miss Paris.


Everyone looks so happy in this one.


My favorite picture from all of France Summer 08. Grainy, but colors!

• 14:52 Audience is deadddd today :( oh well, happy fathers day- call your dad! #
• 01:29 Dayyy off yayyy!! #
• 03:33 Sleeping at moms house: the dog snores. Haha. #

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• 18:27 Getting pumped for performance #2 after Chipotle visit #2 of the week :) #
• 19:39 The percussion player just played Harry Potter on his xylophone and we all heard it on the backstage monitors. Awesome :) #

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A big big part of me wants to go to these auditions - I think it'd be so much fun :) (And good experience)

Wizard of Oz non Equity national tour - http://www.playbill.com/jobs/find/job_detail/26079.html (principals), http://www.playbill.com/jobs/find/job_detail/26080.html (ensemble)
Fame International tour - http://www.playbill.com/jobs/find/job_detail/26146.html

Anyone wanna come with? I'm not sure I can make it work (I have to figure out driving Paul to and from his Summer School class those mornings...) but it could be really fun.

• 20:25 Show #2! teasing hair is so painfulll lol #
• 00:43 Laura's here!!! Yayayayay!! #
• 02:26 Gosh I can't wait to live in NYC. #

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• 09:41 Flipping exhausted. Opening night tonight. #
• 13:58 Chipotle for lunch = EXACTLY what I needed. YUMM. #
• 16:22 Need caffeine before show. Recommendations for @Starbucks beverages with the most caffeine that taste the least like coffee?? #
• 21:48 Tweeting from backstage- opening night of Urinetown at Princeton Summer Theater! (come see us! bit.ly/oEol5 ) #

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• 09:31 I could sleep all morning. #
• 14:59 The iTunes update messed up my phone :( #
• 15:56 Phone fixed! iPhone 3.0 is a go! YES! #
• 21:58 Geez... another injury... so stressful! #
• 21:58 (Not me, someone in the cast) #

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• 12:43 Maybe we'll finish tech today? Maybe?? #
• 18:16 HOAGIE HAVEN OM NOM NOM #
• 02:17 No iPhone 3.0 yet. #

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• 09:55 Yay Twitterific works again! #
• 13:41 4 more hours of tech? YAYY :( #
• 02:10 I am totally addicted to True Blood. #
• 03:03 My goodness... I can't stop watchinggggg.... I'm really addicted to this show. Never thought I'd fall for the whole vampire fad. Oops. #
• 03:31 Agh and now I can't sleep. Serves me right. #

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• 10:10 Wow what an unpleasant night. I will never take Celebrex again. #

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